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Rated: ?? By: Ashley He opened the door and took off his coat, and Laura’s, placing them both on the coat rack. He and Laura remained by the door, and she walked forward, placing a hand on the side of his face as she brought her mouth to his and began to kiss. Before Scott knew it he became wrapped up in what they were doing, eagerly kissing her back. His only thoughts were of her soft lips caressing his, until she began to walk backwards towards the stairs, and he realized what was about to happen. He had to put a stop to it, there were more important things to do first. Scott pulled his mouth away from Laura’s and she let out a slight groan of disappointment. “Laura, we need to talk first.” “Well, we can talk, just upstairs.” she said in a near whisper as she moved closer to him again, trying to claim his mouth. “Laura, I want you, but I want all of you.” he said, trying to emphasize his point. Laura stepped back and sighed. There was the “all” word again. She knew what was coming, what she was afraid was going to happen. turn out the light just say goodnight, to yourself may I remind you when you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong cause that's when they call you, in the night he's got your picture in his mind he's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime “You want to talk?,” Laura said, taking a seat on the couch. “Fine we’ll talk. How are the kids? Like the weather? Why don’t you want me?” She asked angrily. “Are we going to do this or not?” She hoped all of her demanding questions would derail him from the heart-to-heart she knew he wanted to have. “Are we going to do this?” Scott asked incredulously. “This isn’t as simple as do we do this, yes or no! I wish it was that easy, but to be honest, things have never been that damn unproblematic for us. Sorry.” He sat on a chair adjacent to the couch so he could face her, but still be a comfortable distance from her. “I thought we settled things back at the Grille?” Laura asked. “Laura that was sex, not a serious evaluation of anything. That’s not how you have an adult relationship.” “So you’re saying I’m childish.” “No, I’m saying that you think we’ve worked things out, and we haven’t. So, here’s the million dollar question,” Scott said, “Why did tonight happen?” is it really true could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you so many times we just give it away, to someone who someone who you “It happened because we both wanted it to happen.” Laura said simply. “Maybe, but I thought that I was having a good time with Bobbie, and I thought you were so hot-bed in love with Spencer?” “I thought.” Laura said, averting his eyes. “So, you’re not in love with him?” “No.” “Do you love me?” “Scotty……” Laura said, a little embarrassed. “Laura?” “I can’t………” “Laura?” “FINE! I love you, alright, I have loved you!” met in bar the back of a car and for a moment you felt important but not in your heart my self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low i know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me “What do you mean “I have loved you””? Scott asked, repeating her words. “Does it matter now?” “Yeah, it does.” “Fine, I’ve known, at least since the whole Stavros mess, when I got back from my Deception trip, that I was in love with you.” “Since then?!? You’ve know you’ve been in love with me, since then, yet you dump me to go back to Spencer? How the hell do you explain that Laura?” “I was in love with you, but I didn’t want to admit it to anyone, especially not myself.” “But you didn’t answer my question, why did you leave me for Spencer?” “I’ve got a question for you, Scotty, do you love me?” Scott stared into her eyes and slowly whispered, “Yeah, I love you Laura. With everything I am.” Laura smiled. “You love me, that’s an easy question. Here’s the hard one. Why do you want me?” i want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you so many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name “What do you see in me?” Laura continued. “What do you mean?” “I have never for the life of me understood what you’ve seen in me. I knew why I wanted you. It was your sense of humor, you smiles that you only gave to me, your gentleness, your passion and intelligence……….You had so much to give me and I had nothing to give back. I never knew how to please you.” She said with a slight laugh. Scott left his chair and sat next to her, turning her head with his hands so she’d face him, and then placing her hands in his. “Laura, you’ve always pleased me.” “No, there’s been times, plenty of times, when I could feel and sense your approval and disapproval, you happiness and your sadness, when you were content or angry. I never knew how to make you happy.” “But you always have made me happy, Laura. We would fight, but that never meant I was unhappy with you.” “I never understood,” Laura went on, “What I brought to you life. David wanted me because I was naïve, I was Luke’s Angel and salvation, I was Stavros’ submissive, I was Stefan’s Lasha, but what was I to you? All these men had their own ideas of who I was and why I was important to them, but what was I to you?” “You were Laura, that’s all.” Scotty said. “Yeah, but Laura is a flawed person, and petty, and often indecisive, cold-hearted woman, what would you want with her?” Laura asked, speaking in the third person. “Sometimes.” Scott said. “But she’s also beautiful , delicate, sensitive, warm, gorgeous, caring and can love with everything she has when she wants to. She’s only those other things when she’s trying to close up and not be seen.” “THAT’S IT, THAT’S IT!” Laura said, loudly, standing up, Scott standing with her. could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for someone who will love you for you so many times we just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name “What?” “You know me, you know who I am and yet you’re not running! Why not?” Laura asked. “Because I love you.” “Yeah, but I have problems.” “Laura, you don’t run away from someone you love because they have problems, or are not 110% perfect. You stick with them and continue to love them and fight with them, for them.” Laura sat back down and quietly said, “That’s what I do, I run. I ran from Luke because of Lucky’s death, I ran to Stefan who wanted to be strong for me. I ran from you because you loved me, and wanted a life with me. But I thought I couldn’t give you that life, so I ran back to Luke, who I could give a simple life to. Who I could play someone innocent with. But the problem was, I wasn’t in love with him. I didn’t love him the way I thought I could. I hate it, Scotty. I hate that you know me so well. You know what I’m thinking, or feeling. And you call me on all the crap I pull. I hate being looked at and analyzed. People have done it all my life. I was watched as a child, The Vinings hoped that I wouldn’t notice I was adopted. My mother watched to see if I was happy with her, then when I was a teenager to see if I wasn’t doing anything I wasn’t supposed to. Luke watched me be happy and figured I was his Angel. You watched to make sure I didn’t self-destruct after the rape, Luke watched me be his angel. Stavros watched me to see that I behaved. My kids watched for me to be a mother, which I never really do well enough. All my life I’ve been watched and I’ve learned to play up to the expectations of the watchers.” “But Laura, I don’t want you to be little Laura Webber, or Angel or Lasha or whoever. I want you to be just Laura, because that’s who I’ve always loved.” “You’ve named what you love about me, the caring and warmth and everything else, but WHY do you love me?” Scott got a contemplative look on his face. “The first person you truly love, who makes you laugh like you never had before, who makes you want to cry when their crying, who makes you want to be a better person, who you want to hold forever, make love to for always, the first person you know, without a doubt you’d die for, you’d trade your life for theirs if it came down to it……..that sticks with you. And that’s how I feel about you, I felt like that then, and I feel it now. Laura, I don’t want you to be anyone but you. All I ask is that you love me and that you’re ready to give us a real chance. That’s it. I know how hard it is for you to open up to people, and for you to talk to me like you just did……….You don’t know how much I love to see you so brave. So, do you love me? Do you want us to start again? Because I love you, demons and flaws and everything else.” you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me give it away to someone who, someone who will cherish your name cherish your name Laura bit her lip, she couldn’t believe all of this was happening. “Scotty, I do love you. And I am ready for us to try again, and I do want to be honest and totally upfront. It‘s scary, being honesty with you, but I‘m going to try.” “That’s all ask, that’s all I want from you.” They leaned in and their lips met, and they slowly kissed. Both hand renewed hope in each other and they both knew that this time things would be different. They slowly pulled apart and smiled at one another with swollen lips. “What now?” Scott asked, as he ran his fingers through her hair. “Make love to me.” Laura responded. ~The End~ |